I've missed quite a few days of blogging..damn. I'll try to squeeze as much as i can remember.
Work has been really well. though it slowed down towards the end. :)
Gonna get the black MacBook this saturday!! Yahoo! And Guitar Heroes!! Sui!!
Had the Yamaha anniversary lunch, An 8 course meal and I TELL YOU.. there was only like 6 of us for a table of 10. Crazy shit. We couldn't finish any of the courses fully. Africa must hate us for that. Hah. And we received a $25 Swensen's voucher as well. Awesome!!
Headed to K-Box @ Cine after and it was my lst ever visit. Cool shit!! Singing avril songs is so pressure-relieving!! And ian keeps singing sappy songs. Whahhha! Love sick bitch.
And i think there was a chipmunk trapped in our room. Scary. What if we get bitten!!?? What if I got bitten? eww..don't.
Had a lot of snacks whilst singing and despite that, we still went ahead for swensen's at night. Damn. I'm amazed at how much i could fill myself. And for the rest too. Hah. Window shopped around heeren for a bit before our supper. Fourskin has some nice stuff. Well, only the cuffs for that matter. Hah. Ian got a almost-gay bag. Almost ya. Almost. Haha.
And jonathan was pretty much our sacrifice for joke-of-the-day. Whahhaha!! Love that pic we captured. (And Joey looks nice in green. :p)
I had the macroni and cheese (baked). Power pack!! (but sucks after a while) Hah.
Tip: Body-surfing on a long red sofa is asking for a joint pain in the neck.
Jon had some miserly serving spaghetti and the rest had boring Fish n chips. (sorry ler..it made me yawn lor..)
Ting2's having some problems with her fag. Same ol, same ol'. Hah. I hope you move on girl!! Your personality can get you better.
Boss is on long leave. (1week+) and we are having the time of our life in the store! Wahhah!!
It's havoc. Creating havoc is tiring. Should stick to working. Damn.
Maha's sad because some singh is obsessed with ev. Wahah. Crazy. Why can't anybody like somebody? Whaha! You have serious issues with yourself dude. And ev's doing a great job trying to understand you. So be thankful. cheh.
(and be thankful the singh's short and weird. If not..I TELL YOUUU...)
Whah.
Pretty much, same ol' coffee every day and night. Been having at least 3 cups a day. 'Cept tonight. Only on my lst cup and it's a delicious Mocha from a very darling Eva. (Thanks for the bagel and cream cheese+ butter combo too!!)
Okay. Since i mentioned and always been, eva, i'd like to share a lil.
Yes it's true we're no longer together. But we ain't split yet.
Everyone around me is telling what a fucking bitch she was for doing what she did.i don't blame you guys. It is right for you awesome people to say that.
BUT.
I have never been connected and so very connected to anybody before. And never thought i would. We're really sometimes like twins. Funnily, whatever we do always compliments each other. I don't know how. But it's true and it's scary.
So despite the great hurt she has inflicted on me, i think it's stupid to discard our great connection over something that's pretty minor compared to what we have shared and will share for the rest of our lives.
The promises we made when we were together still holds up till now. Because i mean them not as a boyfriend. I meant them as a soulmate.
A soulmate doesn't mean one has to be together.
Love plays a big part in this role. Love in many different ways. Love doesn't require one to return whatever they have given. It's just giving and giving. That's all.
Not many can achieve that. because they are just humans being born unrealistic, selfish, conditional and single-minded.
Everyone still questions me whether i still have feelings for her. I do. Of course. but the thing they don't understand is, i love her as a awesome-ness friend. (yes. my real soulmate)
I'm not loving her with intentions of wanting to win her back. I've already stopped waiting for her return.
We are close. Very close.
Don't you people ever want someone whom you can trust and share and confide in ANYTHING at all? Someone you know who's always there because they want to and not because they feel they should?>
Eva's is special to me. Everyone should have that special someone in their life.
Why there ain't many like me and eva is because they think that a special someone should be their girlfriend and shit.
I tell you. No. That's not my interpretation of Love.
If you are together with that special someone, then it's a bonus. A privilege. A real gift.
Eva showed me a passage from the Bible (corinthians) about Love.
And telling me i achieved all that. And i AM that.
Thank you. It's all natural for me because you and me have that special chemistry. And no one can interfere. Someone did but it still doesn't bother our relationship.
A soulmate. It's an invisible thing.
It's always floating around no matter where we both are.
We feel each other despite the distance.
Whatever you have done eva,
i appreciate it. You may think that you have failed as soulmate. You haven't.
I'm still here. All cheerful and supportive of you. Just as you would of me. I know.
Once a soulmate, always a soulmate. We can never fail each other. No such rubbish.
Live your life as you want it. Do not let anybody stop you from your decisions. Nobody should and nobody can. It's YOUR life. YOUR heartbeat. YOUR hands.
YOUR.FUTURE.
I've seen you grown.
And tell me honestly.
Aren't you much more mature & confident now?
Compared to when we just got together?
(It took a lot for me to finally let go of you. And i had to control my tears from dripping off. This is during the anniversary lunch. And it was hard for you to accept it too.
We shall always keep that lyric i sent you in our hearts.)
Till today, our candle hasn't started burning yet. And through thick and thin we shall go through together. As promised right from the start. :)
I Love You.
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